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Thursday, November 30th

Real life jobs!

music: the guy cleaning Frerichs
mood: sort of in disbelief, actually

So I got a call from the Medford School District while I was in Spanish this morning saying that Wilson Elementary would love to interview me tomorrow if possible. So I may need to go home this weekend. I'm going to call her back and see ... because the absolute earliest I would set up the interview for would be 4:00 because I have to go to Spanish -- and we get out of class at 11, so that would give me 5 hours before the interview, which is a little cushion ... which is good.

I'm kind of baffled that I actually got an interview, to be honest. lol Don't really know why ... I'm qualified! I just ... wow. Didn't expect it, I guess?

Yay! smile


[Edit]: 3:30 tomorrow afternoon. Eep!
Sam on 11.30.06 @ 11:50 AM MST [link]

Tuesday, November 28th

Complaining momentarily.

music: Grey's Anatomy
mood: sad

I have had a headache for two days ... TWO. Last night it was so bad it was making me sick to my stomach and blurring my vision. I had to take Nyquil in order to sleep last night and still couldn't fall asleep until after midnight (I took Nyquil at 10:15). Then I woke up at 6:15am with a pounding headache STILL and couldn't sleep. I emailed the teacher I aid for and told her I wasn't going to be able to come in because of this two day headache that was keeping me from seeing straight and she was okay with it, thankfully. But still.. so I slept until 9:30 and it is still hurting. I have been taking ibprophen and it's not doing any good at all ... bought some Excedrin Tension Headache tonight ... took two about an hour and fifteen minutes ago and guess what? I still have a headache. The only thing that does the slightest bit of good is my aroma-therapy neck wrap ... the kind you warm up in the microwave. Bah. sad

Oh yeah, and because I was so sick last night, I couldn't go play in the snow and there was LOTS of snow given the fact that I live in McMinnville where we rarely get any! And it's pretty much melted away today... sad

And now that I have complained enough ... it is time to go watch a 3 hr long history movie on the Ronald Regean.

This is my not excited face. sad
Sam on 11.28.06 @ 06:59 PM MST [link]

Monday, November 27th

He's my Noah Calhoun.

mood: thoughtful

Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?


Young Allie: Now, say you're a bird.
Young Noah: If you're a bird, I'm a bird.


Allie: Do you think our love can take us away together?
Duke: I think our love can do anything we want it to.


Duke: They didn't agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday, but in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.


Anne: 'Cause I might know you a little better than you think. And I don't want you waking up one morning thinking if you'd known everything you might have done something different.


Young Noah: Get in the water.
Young Allie: No! I'm scared.
Young Noah: Get in the water, woman! Get in the water!
Young Noah: No I'm sorry baby, please just get in.
Young Noah: GET IN THE WATER!


Young Noah: My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.



Sam on 11.27.06 @ 03:49 PM MST [link]


He knows what I need.

music: just the thousands of thoughts in my head
mood: Not as relieved as I thought I'd be.

I got this in my email just now ...
I am really grateful for prayers that are answered.
"This too shall pass."


"In the moonlit silence of that Near Eastern night, every acute pain,
every heartfelt grief, every crushing wrong and human hurt experienced by
every man, woman, and child in the human family was to be heaped upon his
weary shoulders. But in such a moment, when someone might have said it to
him, he rather says to us, 'Let not your heart be troubled, neither let
it be afraid.' (John 14:27.)"

(Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, "He Loved Them unto the End," Ensign, Nov. 1989, 25)
Sam on 11.27.06 @ 09:46 AM MST [link]

Saturday, November 25th

Looking through the crowd, I looked for something else.

music: Dixie Chicks -- "Everybody Knows"
mood: razz

Well, I fought with a stranger and I met myself
I opened my mouth and I heard myself
It can get pretty lonely when you show yourself
Guess I could have made it easier on myself
But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow
Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Dixie Chicks -- "Taking the Long Way Around

I hope, for more love, more joy and laughter
I hope, we'll have more than we'll ever need
I hope, we'll have more happy ever after
I hope, we can all live more fearlessly
And we can lose all the pain and misery
I hope, I hope
Dixie Chicks -- "I Hope"

Some people think I'm crazy
But try to understand
I get satisfaction
Out of everything I can
Dixie Chicks -- "I Like It"

We were young and so inspired
We weren't the only ones who thought
We'd change the world
No sun would set without us
No one we knew could ever doubt us
We had our future figured out
We knew a love like ours would always save the day
And that we'd always be ok
Dixie Chicks -- "Favorite Year"

I come to find a refuge in the
Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay
Dixie Chicks -- "Easy Silence"
Sam on 11.25.06 @ 11:31 AM MST [link]

Friday, November 24th

Happy day after Thanksgiving

music: Hyper Static Union -- "Overhead"
mood: Thankful

I know it is the day after Thanksgiving, but I figured I better make a post. smile Life is constantly moving and it is important to take a step back every once in a while and figure out exactly what I'm grateful for. Here are a few things, most of which are reitterated from small group on Monday.

My family: They've been there my whole life and they will be there the rest of my life, no matter who else comes in and out of my life. My parents have made a lot of sacrifices so that I could live out my dreams and really, I am ridiculously blessed. My life is nothing short of a dream most days and a huge part of that is my family.

My friends: As I come to the end of my college career, I'm learning more and more about how vital my friends have been the last few years. My life would not be what it is without them. Not much more can be said than that ... I don't want to complicate such a simple and profound blessing.

The way God is putting my life together: Again ... I don't want to complicate such a simple and profound blessing by trying to explain it. It is what it is and I am grateful for that. smile

And lastly ...
I am grateful to be in the right country to celebrate Thanksgiving this year!! smile

Last year I was in an amazing country with some fantastic people and I am REALLY glad I was there! BUT that doesn't mean I'm not happy to be in the US on Thanksgiving. lol No one knows how to celebrate like us. smile We have the best holidays in the world. lol A day dedicated to eating, drinking and be merry? What could be better than that? wink

Anyway, that is all. I'm going to start unpacking some stuff and getting my room situated for me to move back in in 3 weeks! Love and blessing to you all. smile <33

Graduation is in 23 days!! xo
Sam on 11.24.06 @ 03:12 PM MST [link]

Tuesday, November 21st

No one famous looks like me.


http://www.myheritage.com/FP/Company/celebrities.php

I did that... and got no matches. lol Sad day..
Sam on 11.21.06 @ 09:45 PM MST [link]

Friday, November 17th

Sometimes the world sings you to sleep at night

music: none
mood: happy smile

Tonight was so good, wow. It was so good! I didn't do any homework, even though I really needed to, but it was so good! I love hanging out with my friends who I have known for three and a half years ... people who have experienced so much of my life at Linfield with me ... people who are genuinely amazing. smile

Recap:
Went to JBoard at 5:30 ... didn't really want to, but went anyway because I'd said I would. We didn't end up hearing the cases because not enough people showed up to make up the board. Ben told me to come over to his place, so I went and hung out with him, Ehow and Zack. We had some good times ... played some 007 on the N64 and then decided to go to dinner. Thai Country won the vote. smile Fabulous idea! Let me tell you. It was love at first bite! wink Yeah Ben.. lol Ehow lost the "not driving" game, but since his windows were all fogged up, we wrote all over the inside of them. lol Dinner was fab, the boys dropped me off at home when I was done.

Lurie came over and we were supposed to watch Grey's ... but we haven't seen each other in a REALLY long time ... so we had a lot to catch up on! Ended up talking through the entire episode ... it was amazing. smile I love my little Lurie!! Then about 11:00, I realized I'd gotten a text from Patrick, so I called him and he came over and the three of us just sat around my living room talking until about 5 minutes ago. It was seriously amazing! We talked about England and our buddies and our memories and our traveling mishaps... it was so good! :-D I just love nights when so much laughter ensues that you don't care that you will wake up the next morning more tired than ever ... having gotten nothing accomplished the night before. smile It is a good feeling.

Nights like tonight make me not want to leave ... one month from today I graduate. It's surreal. We have roughly 2 1/2 weeks of class left, we realized. It's ridiculous. I am excited to get on with life, but deeply saddened by what I will be leaving behind. Nothing will compare to my time here -- and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Tonight was one of those nights when I am glad that I decided to leave the house ... even though I really didn't want to. Because really, if I hadn't ... would tonight have been the same? Probably not. I'd have stayed home in my sweats and cleaned up before Lurie got here ... we'd have watched Grey's and I would've been so tired that I probably would've sent her home afterwards. The night would have been a bust.

We have to make choices every single second of our lives ... and the choice to go to JBoard is a choice I'm glad I made tonight. smile Trivial, yes. But it was amazing nonetheless. smile

To change the world, start with one step
However small, the first step is hardest of all
Once you get your gait, you'll be walkin' tall
You said you never did, cause you might die tryin'
--Dave Matthews Band, "You Might Die Trying"

There are days when everything seems wrong, when little things hurt you for no good reason, and then there are days like today, when the world just sings to you … from the minute you open your eyes in the morning to the minute you shut them again at night.

Seeing much, suffering much, and studying much are the three pillars of learning. ~ Benjamin Disraeli

We spend most of our time talking about nothing. But I just want to let you know that all of these nothings have meant so much more to me than many somethings. ~ You've Got Mail

A good laugh makes us better friends with ourselves and everybody around us. ~ O.S. Marden

Do you ever wonder if you had taken a left turn instead of a right turn, you could have been somebody different? ~ Dave Matthews Band

We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little bit of each other everywhere. ~ Tim McGraw

The people you care about you never really say good-bye to. ~ Real World

It doesn't take a lot for me to smile. I like it that way.

When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. When you’re over the old boyfriends and old girlfriends and you realize you can live without your first love, you learn. You see that the world doesn’t end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go. You learn what real love is and you begin to see that one friend who really cares is better than a hundred friends who don’t. You learn that you can be strong, take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears, go out and experience life. But when you’re at the end of your rope and you’re ready to jump off that ledge, remember that heartaches fade, pain subsides, and though life seems at times too tough to handle, it’s also too precious a gift to waste. Keep on living, never give up and remember: as you grow up, you learn.

Never let class get in the way of your education. ~ Dr. Howard Hesby

Listen, every second counts. Every single moment leads up to now. ~ The Juliana Theory

The years go by. The time, it does fly. Every single second is a moment in time that passes oh so quick and it seems like nothing. But when you’re looking back … well, it amounts to everything. ~ Catch 22
Sam on 11.17.06 @ 01:19 AM MST [link]

Wednesday, November 15th

Today is a meh kind of day.

music: nadda
mood: meh satisfied

Every have those days when all you really want to do is cuddle up on the couch in the arms of the one you love and just forget about the world?

Today is one of those days.
plain
Sam on 11.15.06 @ 12:35 PM MST [link]

Tuesday, November 14th

Let's not wait until the end to be the things we wish we'd been.

music: Superchic[k] -- "Super Trooper"
mood: Prcrastinating.. lol

Hi.

So ... not much is going on. Things have been relatively unexciting lately, but that is okay. I need to focus a little bit more on finishing my classes than ... not finishing my classes. lol The semester is coming to a close rather rapidly and I still have quite a bit to do. Don't worry, it will all get finished! It is just a matter of when.. lol

Timing is everything, I've learned. wink

Graduation countdown: 33 days! big grin
I am so flippin' excited!!

Senioritis has hit ... hard!

I have narrowed down my choices for grad school to Westminster College in Salt Lake. I'm kind of putting all my eggs in one basket, but I think it will be okay! I am applying to the MEd program and today's decision is that I want to teach 5th grade for the rest of my life.. lol Rather than high school. But that could all change tomorrow, as it so often does. wink But for today, that is what I want to do. I will keep you posted. smile

I am happy that my life is starting to take some sort of understandable shape again; as of late, things have kind of been a mess and I'm not one for having my life in a thousand different places. lol My heart is almost always where my body is ... but my head is always in the clouds, which is fine, of course. As long as I still feel like I have some roots and some sort of direction and for a while, the direction was certainly lacking! lol However, life has started to get back on track and that is all that matters. smile I have regained direction and purpose and intent. Tired as all get out, but that is okay!

A girl at Linfield passed away Sunday morning. It's really got me thinking a lot about life and how short it is. I mean, heck. She was only 18! 18. So much of my life happened after the age of 18 ... and I'm only 20! Can you imagine all the things I'd have missed if I hadn't been blessed enough to live the last 2 years of my life? Chelsea was young -- so, so young; she didn't get to live so much of her life ... it makes me that much more determined to live my life to the fullest ... to really live. To live each day like I mean it. It's at times like this that I am really glad that I know the plan of salvation -- to know that Christ has redeemed us all from mortal death and to know that no matter what happens, we will all be lifted up on the last day and we will all have the chance to live with our Savior once again. It's a beautiful thing.

Anyway, I have a history test tomorrow.
I should probably go study.
And eat dinner.
¡Tengo mucho hambre! No tengo que tiempo comer en la tarde, pero necesito antes de estudiar para mi examen de historia. El exam no es muy dificil, pero necesito leer mis notas por las preguntas. No sé cuándo pregunta es necesito escribir en y deseo preperar para todos las preguntas. ¡Está bien porque fui mi clase más de algunas personas en mi clase! smile

Adios chicos y chicas. smile
Sam on 11.14.06 @ 07:02 PM MST [link]

Saturday, November 4th

Things that are good about tonight.

music: The Starting Line -- "Three's a Charm"
mood: smile Happy!

--it's FRIDAY!
--free tickets to the Jeremy Camp/Hawk Nelson concert!! smile oh yeah, and we got them two hours before the show started. lol
--going to a fun concert with a cute girl named Jessica Shields
--roasting pumpkin seeds
--boiling pumpkin flesh so that we can make pumpkin bread!
--pumpkin adventures with the Frerichs kid and the honorary Frerichs kid (jshields)
--crumble cake (thanks Logan! smile mmmmm!!)
--riding the Scoot Scoot around the 1st floor and visiting my friend Erik
--being happy

Bad things about tonight:
--not talking to Brandon. sad day.
Sam on 11.04.06 @ 01:42 AM MST [link]

Thursday, November 2nd

When you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you.

music: Rascal Flatts -- "My Wish"
mood: cool eh? rained on (literally), lol

My Wish
Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, and the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.

But More than anything, Yeah, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. Yeah.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
Sam on 11.02.06 @ 07:30 PM MST [link]