You don't have to tell me, I know I worry too much.
mood: breathing a little easier.
My car is fixed and in my possession.
My package has finally been delivered.
My dad took care of all the loan stuff and he spoke w/ Linfield, so they know the money is coming.
I have good friends.
And an amazing boyfriend.
][He is far too patient with me sometimes, I think.][
But I am glad.
He keeps me sane when I'm driving myself crazy.
Dinner is being provided before institute tonight, which is good because I don't want to cook.
I think there is a girl going to buy my laptop speakers, which means $10, which means good.
And Sar owes me $20 for the weanie roasters I had to buy in August.
I'm applying for a job at the counseling center (as a receptionist, not a full time client. 
).
Tomorrow I get to hug my mom.
Things will be fine as long as I remember to breathe.
Thank you, Brandon, for reminding me of that.
iloveyou.
Sam on 09.13.06 @ 05:44 PM MST [link]
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mood: stressed 
I think I'm going crazy. My mood has been all over the place the last few days.
And I have 8000 things to do.
And no time to do them.
And my car was supposed to be done last Friday. It is now Wednesday and in theory, it is supposed to be done by 4:00. We will see if that's true ... since it was also supposed to be done Monday ... and yesterday.
And FedEx sucks.
The people at the call centers are idiots.
I hate when I get hung up on.
And my apartment is an absolute diaster area.
And I don't have a job.
Or money in my bank account.
Which subsequently means that I cannot buy more food.
And all of a sudden Linfield is telling me that my dad never applied for a parent plus loan, so now I owe Linfield 3300 and still have not bought books because I was planning on buying books with the money left over from the loan.
Not to mention adding money to my meal card so I could get lunch from Dillin on days when I am not in my apartment from 9-4.
And I miss some of my friends who don't respond to any of my attempts to contact them.
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Sam on 09.13.06 @ 03:28 PM MST [link]
Thursday, September 7th
Adventures in having your own apartment.
music: the fan
mood: better than before.
Things to be aware of when making cookies:
First, make sure you set a timer.
Second, do not lose track of time ... even if you DO set a timer.
Third, if you mess up on either of the aforementioned things, you will burn your cookies.
Fourth, 1 extra minute is okay. Heck, even 2 or 3 extra minutes is probably okay. TEN extra minutes is not okay.
Remember that.
Sam on 09.07.06 @ 10:23 PM MST [link]
So much left to say and nothing is being said.
music: nadda
mood: 
uncertain
This is one of those times in life when there is so much I want to say and no way to say it ... one of those times when I thought I was doing the right thing and all it has done is backfire tremendously. One of those times when I just wish I could take back everything.
I thought it would make things better ... I thought it would make us better. And that's all I want ... is for us to be better, stronger, more in love.
Clearly it did not work out that way.
Here's my white flag.
Sam on 09.07.06 @ 12:54 PM MST [link]
happy!