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Tuesday, May 29th
Sunday, May 27th
"The old oak give s us courage!"
music: nadda
mood: 
proud
I just wanted to give a public congrats to my Linfield friends who are finally done! I hope graduation goes smoothly and that, when you shake President Hellie's hand and receive your diploma, you realize exactly how many amazing memories and how much hard work that diploma represents. You've done it! You're graduates! I wish I could be there ... but know that I am so proud of you guys!! Love you!
xo
Sam on 05.27.07 @ 09:53 AM MST [link]
Thursday, May 24th
You should never let the sun set on tomorrow before the sun rises today.
music: Nine Days -- "If I Am" (acoustic version)
mood: 
happy!
Things that make me happy, in no particular order:
1) Seeing "= Total Account Balance: $0.00" on my credit card statement
2) Walking around temple square at dusk
3) The temple
4) Living in Sugar House ... I forget I live in the middle of a huge city ... and I live on a tree-lined street.
5) Finding my cell phone and being able to return the one I bought for $245 yesterday
6) Working out
7) 4 day weekends!
8) Driving around with the windows rolled down on a beautiful night like tonight!
9) New friends and new, exciting sets of plans
10) My roommates.
11) The fact that my friends are graduating this weekend! Congrats friends!! I love you and am so proud!! I wish I could be there to cheer as you walk across the stage!
12) An amazingly cute boy named Brandon! 
13) The fact that we are getting married in 84 days!!
14) Getting an A on my first essay as a graduate student!
15) Today!
Sam on 05.24.07 @ 10:08 PM MST [link]
Sunday, May 20th
I'll become what you became to me.
music: Creed -- "With Arms Wide Open"
mood: 
Hazy
I didn't get a lot of sleep last night ... which kind of sucks. However, the things I learned from such a long conversation will improve our relationship tremendously in the long run. For instance, we learned that we don't necessarily have to finish every conversation about stupid things and that sometimes it makes more sense to just go to bed and let things rest and wake up in the morning and see if we still think those same things are as important (read: RIDICULOUS.. lol) as they were the night before. Otherwise, we end up going around in circles for hours and never really accomplishing anything ... keeping us both from sleeping and causing more frustration that it is ever really worth. And, as Brandon pointed out, this does not mean we don't love each other.
Man oh man, I adore him.
The stupidest part is that we weren't fighting even. So it was an issue of going to bed angry. lol We were just having this talk ... and I don't really even know what it was about or how it got started. Oy. Sometimes I wonder.. lol
But I'm glad we learning things last night. And I'm glad that we love each other enough to understand that we're not always going to understand exactly what the other person is saying ... and that the only way to keep tensions down is to ASK. Communication is key and we've been working on it a lot over the course of our relationship and it has made us better people. It has made us a better couple.
In other news, I am desperately NOT wanting to write this paper. It's about Spanish Speaking At Risk Students in the US ... well, actually, that's the title. lol Except I didn't know it was the title until it was typed with capital letters in this blog ... then it became the title. Oy. lol Oh well, as has been (wisely) said ...
Perhaps the most valuable result of all education is the ability to make yourself do that thing you have to do, when it ought to be done, whether you like it or not. ~ Thomas Huxley
Here's a blessing in disguise for you ... we only had a week to write this research essay, right? Partly because the class is only 3 1/2 weeks long, but also, I imagine, because Joyce knew that we would all write the essay the night before anyway. Even if we had all three weeks to write it ... we would still wait until the night before. lol
Maybe that's my problem. Maybe since it's the afternoon before, I just can't do it.
Apparently I work well under pressure.
Jenny says there's a crepe shop around here somewhere. I think I'm going to make her go tomorrow. They have nutella crepes, which is the main reason we want to go.
I've started going to the gym this week -- it feels good.
Exercise is a good thing.
So is vitamin C. lol
Speaking of which, I need to take my double dose for today. I'm trying really hard not to get sick ... because I've had the feeling like I'm going to the last few days (since Wednesday). But it is imperative that, in this very intensive and busy month, I don't get sick.
Alright, enough is enough.
This paper needs to be written.
¡Adios!
Sam on 05.20.07 @ 03:37 PM MST [link]
Thursday, May 17th
Who needs sleep? Well ya never gonna get it.
music: nadda
mood: COMPLETELY POOPED
So ... 4 days into my Masters and I already want to drop dead. Seriously.
I've had 21 hours of class in the last 4 days ... plus about 10 hours of homework.
That's almost a full time job in 4 days!
Plus, I started work yesterday.
Ay carumba.
This is going to be harder than I thought! lol
The Grey's finale was kind of sub par... I had higher hopes. And even though people complained that last week's episode was just as bad the the rest of the second half of the season, I thought it was great! I thought it would lead into an amazing season finale!
No such luck.
Maybe I'll watch season 4.
Maybe I'll buy season 3.
Maybe.
Alright, I have a Tech assignment I want to finish so I can concentrate on my research paper this weekend.
Oh, and I would like to point out that Brandon and I are getting married in 3 MONTHS!!!!
xoxo
Sam on 05.17.07 @ 10:05 PM MST [link]
Sunday, May 13th
A photo says, "You were happy, and I wanted to catch that."
music: REM -- "End of the World As We Know It"
mood: slightly productive
Alright, so I know I haven't put pictures up on my website in oh ... forever .... lol But I have started doing it again. Engagement pictures are posted, as welll as photos from Sam and Amanda's wedding, and some pictures of my new house in Salt Lake. I have also put up SOME pictures from senior year, but not very many.. there are just too many to put up. lol
I am, however, going to put up some pictures from graduation, as well as some pictures from after graduation.
Just FYI.
Sam on 05.13.07 @ 01:59 PM MST [link]
Saturday, May 12th
The bike got stolen and the bike has no suspects.
music: Friends
mood: happy.
I make mistakes … big ones … but I never make them twice. ~ Mona Lisa Smile
Nothing we learn in this world is ever wasted. ~ Eleanor Roosevelt
A book is a version of the world. If you do not like it, ignore it or offer your own version in return. ~ Salman Rushdie
People don’t realize how a man’s whole life can be changed by one book. ~ Malcolm X
The beginning of knowledge is the discovery of something we do not understand. ~ Frank Herbert
Wisdom is the supreme part of happiness. ~ Sophocles
He who opens a school door closes a prison. ~ Victor Hugo
Education is when you read the fine print; experience is what you get when you don’t. ~ Pete Seeger
Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence. ~ Robert Frost
Perhaps the most valuable result of all education is the ability to make yourself do that thing you have to do, when it ought to be done, whether you like it or not. ~ Thomas Huxley
To think and to be fully alive are the same. ~ Hannah Arendt
A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes. ~ Gandhi
It is the supreme art of the teacher to awaken joy in creative expression and knowledge. ~ Albert Einstein
We cannot teach people anything. We can only help them discover it within themselves.
You’ll find that the only thing you can do easily is be wrong and that is hardly worth the effort. ~ Norton Justire
Look as long as you can at the friend you love, no matter whether that friend is moving away from you or coming back toward you. ~ Rumi
Love is the only thing that we can carry with us when we go. ~ Louisa May Alcott
In this world, there’s a kind of painful progress … longing for what we’ve left behind and dreaming ahead. ~ Tony Kushner
The world is before you and you need not take it or leave it as it was before you came in. ~ James Arthur Baldwin
Say not, “I have found the truth,” but rather, “I have found a truth.” Say not, “I have found the path of the soul.” Say rather, “I have met the soul walking along my path.” ~ Khalil Gibram
It is not just learning things that’s important. It’s learning what to do with what you learn and learning why you learn things at all that matters. ~ Norton Justire
Learn at least this: what you are capable of. Let nothing stand in your way. ~ Tony Kushner
It’s a form of love just to talk to somebody that you have nothing in common with and still be fascinated by their presence. ~ David Byrne
It is not our purpose to become each other; it is to recognize each other, to learn to see the other and honor him for what he is. ~ Herman Hesse
The language of friendship is not words, but meanings. ~ Henry David Thoreau
We are each other’s harvest, we are each other’s business; we are each other’s magnitude and bond. ~ Gwendolyn Brooks
Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance. They make the latitudes and longitudes. ~ Henry David Thoreau
In a world where this is so much to be done, I felt strongly impressed that there must be something for me to do. ~ Dorthea Dix
Be not simply good; be good for something. ~ Henry David Thoreau
It is never too late to be what you might have been. ~ George Eliot
Courage is knowing your licked before you begin, but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what. ~ Harper Lee
Sam on 05.12.07 @ 06:36 PM MST [link]
Love conquers all.
music: Friends, season 7
mood: 
tired
But if something was really important, fate made sure it somehow came back to you and gave you another chance. Events conspired to bring you back to where you’d been. It was what you did then that made all the difference: it was all about potential. ~ The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen
Well, here I am ... at 2:45 in the morning ... writing about a boy whose heart and mind lifts me to places I never knew existed. As per typical, it takes the going away to fully remember it ... or maybe it's not even that. Maybe it's the going away that allows us to have time to remember it. Is that bad? Do we really get so wrapped up in our busy lives that we actually forget to remember the things that make us who we are?
I was bored ... and thought I'd read through some old posts on Brandon's website (www.not-so-simple.com). And I'm not talking like 4 months ago old ... I'm talking about 4 years ago old. I read a few from the month we started dating and then skipped ahead to the month after we broke up sophomore year. Then I came back to my website and started reading some of the posts from last April when we (finally) got back together. It's fascinating how much things have changed -- how the two of us have changed -- and how the events of our lives have brought us to where we are now, on the brink of a new chapter of our lives ... one that we will be starting joined as man and wife.
Then, as I was thinking about those things, this quote came up in one of my entries and it really made me grateful that Heavenly Father deemed this relationship so important that He kept bringing chances back into our lives. Heaven only knows we needed them! I am so thankful for the time we had together when we were young ... there is nothing quite like the love of two young people who are completely and utterly head over heels for each other. There is nothing quite like knowing that, when I was 17, I met a man who was so undeniably perfect for me and now, at 21, I will be his wife. There is nothing quite like knowing that he has seen me grow and he has been with me and has faced life's challenges with me. There is nothing quite like looking back and realizing how much we have grown together as a couple and at the same time, how much we have grown as individuals.
When we were kids, we didn't really know any better ... we didn't know that life was hard, we didn't know that there would be things that we simply couldn't fix. Things we couldn't handle. But to us, none of that really mattered as long as we had each other. We didn't care if the world came crashing down around us ... as long as we were in each other's arms.
Now, 4 years later ... I still feel the same way. It doesn't matter what happens to me -- it doesn't matter what happens to my plans or my ambitions. It doesn't matter if, instead of Plan A, I have to use Plan Y ... as long as we are together, I know that I am strong enough to make it through. I know that, so long as he is holding my hand, I have the power to do whatever needs to be done. If the world came to an end tomorrow, I would be content knowing that I have spent the entirety of my adult life (as of today) loving a man for whom I would do anything for. And I would be content knowing that he would do nothing short of the same for me.
Why I bring all that up ... I'm not entirely sure. I think that between the two of us, we have experienced more than our fair share of life -- and I think that, as a couple, we have undergone more than our fair share of challenges. But look where we are now. We are 97 days away from joining together in the holiest of unions ... 97 days away from becoming husband and wife. 97 days from standing before those closest to us and proclaiming our love for one another. And honestly, I can't think of a single person with whom I would rather spend my forever. Growing old with him will be nothing short of a dream come true. "You're like a dream that hasn't ended yet, and I am anxious for the rest."
Moral of the story?
I don't know.
I guess, if anything, it's about taking chances, even when you think you're all out of chances. It's about giving forgiveness and unconditional love, even when it seems like you should only do the opposite. It's about trusting that God puts people in your life at certain times so that you can capitalize on the opportunity. It's all about the possibility. It's all about what you do with those possibilities. Life is short, but it moves so fast. Hang on and enjoy the ride. And when someone comes along with whom you enjoy spending the ride with ... hold on tight. And if, by some unfortunate turn of events, Heavenly Father sees it fit to take that person away, trust that He will either bring that person back to you at a later time or bring you someone completely different. Either way, it will be exciting and either way, if you let them, people will bless your life in ways you never imagined.
And with that, I'm going to bed.
xo
[[ily BCT]]
Sam on 05.12.07 @ 02:13 AM MST [link]
Thursday, May 10th
No me gusta transmissions
mood: blah
So my tranny went out on Monday ... because my tork conververt went out. Whatever the heck that is. I should've just sold the car before I came out here. lol Then this could've been someone else's problem instead of mine. lol Oh well, at least it happened a) after we were already in Salt Lake City and b) before Brandon left.
Ay yi yi.
Time for a shower, me thinks.
Sam on 05.10.07 @ 11:06 AM MST [link]
Saturday, May 5th
Hello world.
music: Nadda
mood: SLEEPY
Well ... in roughly 14 hours, I will be in Salt Lake. We'll be leaving in about 1/2 hour and will probably stop a few times along the way.
It is time to open a new chapter in my life.
It's only just begun, but I am excited to experience the rest.
Sam on 05.05.07 @ 05:54 AM MST [link]